If you don’t do the things you say you’re going to do, there is no reasonable, logical, feasible way for you to end up the places you say you’re going to be.
I need to get a new mattress, because sleeping as I do, laying here as I do causes such a violent and terrible response, one that I am surely experiencing in my teeth as well, that I really lose functionality. This is my day to get stuff done and I can’t fathom doing anything but laying there just on the softer edge of agony, waiting for something to physically kick me out of bed. Reading about the state of the world is no great help, you just want to pull up more and more covers to quash all the noise of that.
So somehow, we’ve peeled ourselves out of bed, the bed/iron maiden, long after we ought to have emerged. We’ve logged the mini-breakfast, but need to pour some water. A small thing, but I can feel myself shying away from it today. I just want to be still and think my way around the headache rather than taking some aspirin, drinking a cup of the clear stuff and moving.
The haircut will help. Force me to get up and put something of a face on and be in public.
Shortly, we will need to investigate lunch. A house lunch, not a wandering out and spending too much on things we don’t know we are eating. See, the magical mental shifts sometimes happen deep underground.
My hair smells like the oil from the pizza. I ate it, but I ate it ensuring it was allotted and measured and I hardly ate anything else to let me eat it. And I enjoyed it, so I suppose that’s how this is meant to work. Still need to get some nutrients in with this method and damn if it wasn’t chock full of the sodium. Things I would likely never choose to be aware of it was I wasn’t tracking. It should have told me I needed to bring some water with me to the show, but no, I didn’t realize until I got there, and it was BYOB how shitty an idea that was.
The concert was nice – a Sofar show where people are expected to, and largely do, be quiet while the performers are singing. Got a couple new artists, one in particular who I enjoyed, and I know I enjoyed it because I started crying within ten seconds of her beginning her first song. Totally like being beaten emotionally raw while I sat under a metal stool surrounded by man-bun sporting hipsters.
I antagonized my sister with my Leftist propaganda. We took a picture I should hate but I’m too tired to care about it being shared online. We discussed things and vented about the respective stalled out relationships in our lives. We didn’t decide anything. We didn’t do anything but be and for a while that felt pretty okay.