I have had a good start thus far. I have nearly drunk a glass of water. I have had my shake. I have charged my Fitbit even if it doesn’t seem to be noticing every step I take. I have been able to have a moment of consideration about things I have otherwise felt too harried to contemplate. These include this blog.
Obviously, for those rare few of you who have visited this page before, you will be noticing a difference. I made, not an abrupt decision, but an abrupt pulling of the trigger on something I’ve been considering for a while and upgraded this blog. The upgrade on WordPress doesn’t really move me into some new echelon of blogging elite, it just takes care of a few things I found irritating. The ads, for starters, which definitely screams quality and kind of upset the layout, more space so if I wanted to add another three or four years worth of pictures I could. (I don’t – but I would like to have some pictures sometime, so you’ll see those.) It also comes with a domain name and because someone out there owns lustrata.com, I’ve had to improvise to make use of this spectacular offer.
So now, if you wanted to get to my website…you could go to thelustratio.com. Which is, I feel the need to clarify, not The Lust Ratio. That sounds like some sort of shitty dating principles, self-help, possibly terrible and upsetting nonsense book that would get famous for a hot minute and then become a joke for the next fifty years. No. It’s the lustratio, the Roman purification ritual upon which this blog was founded.
Conceptually. I haven’t slaughted a pig of late. Nor a ram. Nor a bull. It is just the idea of getting yourself back in good graces. Of suffering in order to make that happen. Of ritual being the bridge between what was and what is desired to be. That’s what we’ve drove around the dunes of in this blog for the past eightish years? We. I. Just me. Just me just struggling with myself. My weight. My relationships. My organizational skills. My ability to hack it at my job. My life. Not that we have to take it wholly as a good thing. Sometimes an obsession with lustratio is tantamount to a refusal to live the time you have, a desire to just lay yourself on the reset button and flutter every few seconds back to square one. Not so healthy.
We have to review ourselves in these five hundred words of daily reflection, not just the things that have happened.
I will update the about me so that if new people come here, they will understand what has been happening – and not happening – but it is nice to feel like everything isn’t so partitioned anymore. There’s a lot of content. Not much of it useful or readable or whatever, but ca existe!
Also, he was present and kind today. That helps.
It just feels like a bit of a breath of life. A moment of positivity.